No bad writing.
No. Bad. Writing.
A simple rule I placed on myself years ago. A rule that I did everything in my power to adhere to at all times. It was something that I used to judge myself with harshly. In a no holds barred sort of way where it started to seem as if I only wrote badly. If I wrote at all. The thing about this rule is that it only really exists through a specific perspective. Outside of that perspective its validity is in question. I may write something I like, you may not like it. I may write something I don’t like, you may like it. Thus the actual point of my rule is lost in its own illegitimacy.
Not to say that there is no such thing as bad writing. Because there obviously is, but I just mean to say that to criticize your own work extensively based on a vague rule is nonsense. The amount of ideas and concepts I scrapped based on this ideal is numerous. Yet maybe I did save myself from bad writing. Maybe I prevented myself from really screwing myself over with terrible writing. In that instance I thank my past self. In the off chance that I didn’t save myself from anything, then I guess it doesn’t matter anyways.
Point is. There is bad writing.
This is probably some of it.
Anyone who has ever created anything knows how it feels when you’re at the cusp of completion. When the vision in your head is almost realized in front of your face. When the work you’ve put in is staring back at you. Every artist of every variety knows that feeling. It’s terrifying.
Will I fuck up? What if it doesn’t work out? What if I did something uninspired? What if nobody gets it? What if my mom hates it? -the questions everyone starts asking at the wrong time. It’s an impossible task to accomplish but it’s at this delicate time that you need to turn off that part of your brain.
I envy those who can not give a fuck about anything and just do what they want without considering the opinion of others. I’m so stricken with ‘what ifs’ that I could write a book solely on those. Id call it ‘This probably won’t sell’. Nevertheless, I’ve reached the endgame, and I can actually taste victory. So it’s time to jump off the edge I guess and hope I land.
It’s what everyone says but nobody does. I’m trying to follow this more closely myself. Take a leap of faith. Take a risk. Believe in yourself. It is the only way.
What happens when the thing you’re focussing on changes to something else? Do you stick with the original plan and pursue that goal? Or do you switch gears with the changed perspective and see where that takes you? Sometimes you’ll be pulled in two seperate directions and other times something sweeps you off your feet. This has happened to me and I’ve done a lot of pondering. I think I have my answer.
I’ve been working on something since February that I’ve been really excited for you all to see. Something has occurred. A week ago I found myself pulled in a different direction with a new inspiration. It was like opening a floodgate and now I sit here with more writing done on this new story in the last week, than all the writing I did for my original project in the last six months. I’ve pulled very very late nights, very long days, and endless rambling to my loved ones. I think I’m in love with this story.
With that being said I was also in love with my original idea. However, I think a part of me always knew that it would have to evolve and become something different than I had otherwise intended. So, with that, it has. I now feel comfortable with my planned timeline and I think it’s ready to be shared. I still have much work to do on both projects, however I can tell you how this will work. My original story, Suffocate, will be split into two parts. The first will be put out this winter, and the second sometime next year. As well, The Gathering, what I am currently working on should be ready this winter as well.
Suffocate is coming.
One of the absolute best feelings in the world is when you get inspiration from a new idea and the flood gates open, drenching you with possibilities. That happened to me the other day. I don’t know how many of you have started watching the Netflix original Stranger Things yet, but it is incredible. I had been toying with another story for a while and I watched this series and it hit me all at once. The basic principle of the show involves a group of young kids who become a part of something dangerous. My story is vastly different, with different characters and even set in a different time, but that basic principle was all I needed to get started.
This story is something I am deeply in love with for another reason, it kicks off a plan I’ve been working on for quite some time as well. My own saga of stories. This is something I have wanted to do since I was a kid, and now I finally have a piece of the foundation. I am very excited about this project and want to share it with you. Below I am going to post a snippet of the story so far, I hope you like it.
I don’t want to give away the story of this or what I want my saga to be. However I will tell you this, I’ve wanted to do something fantastical and horrifying for quite some time. The book I’m currently writing is unrelated, but my plate is getting quite full as it stands.
Let me know what you think so far, this is only an excerpt of dialogue so far, but all of chapter 1 is finished and I am currently on chapter 2. As you can see the story is the same as the title of this post. The Gathering, It will be followed by a story that I have already written, I will wait to post that one until I have this one wrapped and in the can. The title of the next phase however, I will reveal. It is called The Fall. I look forward to sharing this universe of mine with you, I have worked very hard on it, and plan to keep bleeding more into it. Thank you for your time and your eyes.
I started writing short stories when I was very young. They were vastly different than what you’ll find on this site. I remember I had a series going about a character called “Knight Rider” no affiliation with the talking car. It was this guy who was basically Batman, who rode a motorcycle, like Batman sometimes does. I ended up coming up with the idea that there was a team of them, and they each had different coloured suits. Like the Power Rangers. Those stories never amounted to much and were my only real foray into anything hero related.
I had another series that I had titled Venom. It was about a chosen one who had to fight dragons, he had a sword etc. Etc. I don’t think I have these note books anymore although I do somewhat wish I did. It would be equal parts interesting and hilarious to read these old stories from the glory days of elementary school. What I do have however, is note books from the last five years. I spent my night tonight transcribing two short stories from paper to keyboard and then have posted them on here. The first one I posted is called “Siren Song” it is a very short little tale I had come up with that is very inspired by post-apocalyptic style films. I would like to do something more with it in the future, and probably change the title. Until then, I hope you find it enjoyable! It’s cover looks like this;
It occurred to me tonight that I have now posted 8 short stories in total and haven’t updated my page which is supposed to have info about each story. That will need to happen. The second story I put up tonight is called “Such Great Heights” If that sounds familiar to you it’s because that is a song by the band The Postal Service. I really love the song and it’s many incarnations as covers and was inspired to write a story based off of it. I hope you enjoy it, it might come off a touch bit repetitive but I really wanted it to feel organic and genuine. I also wrote it about 2 some odd years ago. I like to think in that time my style/talent has improved. If you need an example then read “Working Title” my most recently written story.
I also had the delight today of starting another story, one that I am very passionate about and can’t wait to share with you. It won’t be a full novel but it will be longer than a short story.
I want to also take another second to thank you for your continued support. I appreciate every like, every follow and every comment. I hope to share as much of my writing as I can with as many people as I can and I just hope that it’s something you all find interesting, relatable or even just amusing. Anything at all works for me, it’s why I bother putting it out here at all. Because if I’m being honest, whether it garners any attention at all, it’s something I’ll always do. I have an obsession with it. I’ll go without it for a while, and realize I need it. Then I’ll have it again, and it’ll drive me crazy. It’s been as of yet the longest ‘will they, won’t they’ of my life. I think I’m ready to settle down with it.
Why fight something you love?
Also, here’s the artwork for that second story I posted.
I think what I need to start doing in order to stay motivated is to have a weekly update. Something to let you know what I should be working on, and to remind myself, to work on it. I like to consider how you must feel in regards to the content I’m putting out, and sometimes it’s nice to know that you’re being thought of. With that being said, I do this for me. For me, for you, but for me. I think any artist can understand how that makes sense. If it’s just gibberish, let me know so I can change my websites tag line, much thanks!
Here it goes;
- Happy Now?
- Wind burnt
Two of those are shorter stories with Wind Burnt being a sort of third part to two stories I have already put on the site (Which I will explain later). Suffocate is something special, which I will update you on as it progresses, I really need to spend more time on it.
It has been a slower past couple weeks for me, I caught the Poke Virus as did probably 80% of the world, and I’ve been cat\house sitting for a friend while she’s on vacation. I promise I will be more active in the coming days.
Also, a photo of aforementioned cat will accompany next post, just because why not share a little of my life with you guys. Thanks for checking in with me and I hope you’re all having a fantastic summer so far!
I have posted another short story. It is one that I really care about and have spent a lot of time on. It has gone through so many revisions and changes. Been apart of larger projects and then cut to pieces again. Now it is perfect in my eye and I am proud to have it published on my site.
I hope you take the time to read it and enjoy it. It is called “Transitions” and the artwork is below.