The Ones Without Feeling

Every so often in this huge and marvellous world we are all equally apart of, we cross paths with an individual that makes us feel a certain way. A feeling of anger, pain and or sadness. A feeling that generates misery. This type of individual almost always wins. If only because we find ourselves constantly distracted by the thoughts they provoked us to generate. Maybe its thoughts of hate, thoughts of anger and even thoughts of vengeance. Either way, its all wasted time. They probably got what they wanted from you and now you’re just spinning your wheels.

It’s never an easy thing. Processing the fact that someone wronged you. No matter how small or how large, its almost always a shock to our systems. Maybe you trusted them, maybe you had no reason to suspect them. Life has a way of being unexpected. I myself was recently taken advantage of in a way where I worked hard for someone, and got majorly screwed over. I didn’t get paid, and I didn’t even get closure.

When I say closure, I literally mean that I don’t actually know if its over with. theres a very small percentage of me that thinks “Maybe he’ll get back to me and I’ll still get paid?”. I know that isn’t likely, and all of my support structures agree it isn’t either. Yet I still find a way to try and hope and no let go. I want my money. Who wouldn’t, but almost more than that I want the closure. An email saying “I screwed you over, haha” would even be acceptable. Just so I know.

Its the waiting that kills you. Yet I won’t lose hope or even further destroy my trust for the outside world. Yet I am exhausted. I worked my ass off for this prick and I have nothing to show for it. Now he’s going to take my work and put his name on it, and theres nothing I can do about it. I’m angry and I’m disappointed. Most of all though, I’m ready to move on. Thats what this is.

I’m taking steps forward.

 

 

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Undying Love

I started writing short stories when I was very young. They were vastly different than what you’ll find on this site. I remember I had a series going about a character called “Knight Rider” no affiliation with the talking car. It was this guy who was basically Batman, who rode a motorcycle, like Batman sometimes does. I ended up coming up with the idea that there was a team of them, and they each had different coloured suits. Like the Power Rangers. Those stories never amounted to much and were my only real foray into anything hero related. 

I had another series that I had titled Venom. It was about a chosen one who had to fight dragons, he had a sword etc. Etc. I don’t think I have these note books anymore although I do somewhat wish I did. It would be equal parts interesting and hilarious to read these old stories from the glory days of elementary school. What I do have however, is note books from the last five years. I spent my night tonight transcribing two short stories from paper to keyboard and then have posted them on here. The first one I posted is called “Siren Song” it is a very short little tale I had come up with that is very inspired by post-apocalyptic style films. I would like to do something more with it in the future, and probably change the title. Until then, I hope you find it enjoyable! It’s cover looks like this; 


It occurred to me tonight that I have now posted 8 short stories in total and haven’t updated my page which is supposed to have info about each story. That will need to happen. The second story I put up tonight is called “Such Great Heights” If that sounds familiar to you it’s because that is a song by the band The Postal Service. I really love the song and it’s many incarnations as covers and was inspired to write a story based off of it. I hope you enjoy it, it might come off a touch bit repetitive but I really wanted it to feel organic and genuine. I also wrote it about 2 some odd years ago. I like to think in that time my style/talent has improved. If you need an example then read “Working Title” my most recently written story. 

I also had the delight today of starting another story, one that I am very passionate about and can’t wait to share with you. It won’t be a full novel but it will be longer than a short story. 

I want to also take another second to thank you for your continued support. I appreciate every like, every follow and every comment. I hope to share as much of my writing as I can with as many people as I can and I just hope that it’s something you all find interesting, relatable or even just amusing. Anything at all works for me, it’s why I bother putting it out here at all. Because if I’m being honest, whether it garners any attention at all, it’s something I’ll always do. I have an obsession with it. I’ll go without it for a while, and realize I need it. Then I’ll have it again, and it’ll drive me crazy. It’s been as of yet the longest ‘will they, won’t they’ of my life. I think I’m ready to settle down with it. 

Why fight something you love?

Also, here’s the artwork for that second story I posted.